Chapter 1

My name is Dexter, I’m 19, blonde haired and blue eyed.

I want to say “toned” but I’m not there yet. I’d go with “sporty” or “muscular”. I mean, my all my muscles are showing pretty well, but I’m not as pumped up as all of those gym addicts. There was a reason for me to start going to the gym.

When I was 17, I stopped playing football. It was around that time that I realised I was into guys. This, and a lack of time for it, led me to quit playing and start working out, since I didn’t want to let myself slack-off and be out of shape.

You see, being a 17 year old gay guy it isn’t easy when you have to change for football practice in a room full of sweaty teenage boys three times a week. Especially considering I have a little thing for feet.

I thought that me quitting, would solve my “problem” and that way I could just be horny and gay all by myself, but I hadn’t considered that some of those guys were actually my friends.

Two of them, I had known ever since I wore my first diaper, Luke and Leonardo. They were my two best friends. Then there was Jeremy, Aaron, Brian, Gary… and Joshua. Oh, man.

Now Joshua, he wasn’t on my football team, but he was in all of my classes in my last year of high school. I had a major crush on him ever since I started to realise I was interested in the guys on the team. In class, we got along very well. We weren’t best friends or anything, but we had mutual friends so I got to know him pretty well. But after quitting the football team, joining the gym, graduating high school and going to college, I sort of grew estranged of all of them. The guys from the team, as well as Joshua. I found other friends, and I hung out with the guys less and less. When we would meet at parties and such and we would talk and have a good time together, but apart from that I didn’t see them often. We were all headed our own seperate ways in life. I missed them. I missed Joshua. I missed how easy it all used to be.

However, thanks to the seperation I did start to get a little bit more into the gay scene during my first year of college. Online chatting, coming out to everyone and whatnot. My coming out was rather easy, since I’m not such a stereotypical gay guy, but just a normal dude. I dress, act and talk like a straight guy, because that’s just the way I am, except I like to suck dick instead of eating pussy, apparently. People didn’t look at me very diffirently, they were all really accepting despite the shock of it all.

I was a horny teenager two years ago, and I still am. The guys play around in my fantasies. Joshua more so then the others. My feelings for the guys from my footballteam are only sexual, but when I think about Joshua I feel so much more than that. Yet, they’re just fantasies. I have to make do with the odd Grindr hookup from time to time. At least, that was my life before yesterday.

Yesterday was a boring day. School sucked, work was even worse and all I wanted to do was go to bed and wake up after a week or so. But then I got a text, telling me that my bed had to wait a little longer.

Dwight, one of my classmates picked me up, and it was a 45 min. drive to the club, since we had to pick up the rest of the gang on the way. I liked hanging out with them, we all became friends on the first day of college and went drinking that same night to get to know each other better. That was a hell of a night.

Dwight turned up some calming music, which was great because I had to get a little bit of rest before we got there.

Plus, I had all the time to daydream about my long life crush. God Joshua, gorgeous Joshua. Wavy blonde hair, sea-blue eyes and not too plump, but very pink tasty-looking lips. Not to mention his athletic build. He is everything a guy could ever want. Jocky football player and all. I have been crushing on him for years, but like the other guys, he seems completely straight. You can’t blame a guy for hoping right? He’s just so likeable, and fun to be around. I can daydream all I want.

When we got to the club it took me some time. But after a little while I had a really good buzz going on.

I had been dancing around with a few girls when I realised I had to go to the bathroom to take a piss. I slowly made my way over there, did my thing and was ready to get back on the dancefloor when I felt a strong hand grab me around my upper arm, pulling me through the crowd into a less busy corner of the room. When the guy loosened his grip, I turned around to face him, realising that it was none other than…

‘J-Joshua?.. W-wha-what’s up man? Is something wrong?’ Oh, awesome Dex, that was not obvious at all. You’re so smooth.

‘Hey Dexy, nothing’s wrong, I just wanted to talk to you for a bit.’ He said, as I stared into his sky-blue eyes. When he started a little catch-up chatting I took that time to look him up and down. He’s really gorgeous, to me at least. His blue eyes, styled blonde hair, broad shoulders, strong muscles, his V-neck showed some boy-cleavedge. His strong legs and large feet were clad in dark skinny jeans and black sneakers. Everything about his looks turned me on, and everything about his personality made me fall in love.

There was not actually that much awkwardness between us though, we had been good friends. I mean everyone knew I was into guys by now. But even the footballguys kept talking to me at parties and stuff, they didn’t really acknowledge the obvious reason for which I quit.

‘…you here with?’ I heard Joshua’s voice, which slapped me into the here and now.

‘Sorry, what did you say?’ I asked.

He smiled at me, a little strangely, as if there were some inside joke I didn’t get.