Mixed Emotions…

Acceptance of who we are, is something we all struggle with. sexuality can be difficult to navigate. What is considered normal is blurred in the eyes of some but so clear in others, To be so strong and find yourself submitting to an-other’s will is a powerful thing , That moment your life changes, that moment you understand who you really are…

Sara’s moment was fast approaching.

That moment Emily placed her lips on mine, and I reacted without hesitation, the butterfly feelings swept right through me. That giddy sensation as she tongue fucked my mouth.. her breath so sweet and warm tinged with the faint sweet scent of wine. and that hint of vanilla perfume scent.. I knew I was falling in love.

My breath taken away , the sweet praise she whispered so softly and often in my ear. That grateful feeling that surged through me, That ache in my heart, as she left me alone in my cage with my new best friend…

Ares.. no longer frightened me ..I submitted to him on demand, wary of letting him knot in my anal cavity, setting myself just right for him to take me vaginally..

The fight and fire had left me, now just confusion, my emotions so fragile, my feelings mixed, every day my heart would flutter as soon as Emily would come to collect me for the next film session or photo shoot. Always in remote locations, or occasionally at a customers private estate, Those were the times i would spend my time being restrained, whipped or subjected to other types of bondage and torture at the whim of the customer..

Emily would coax me kiss me and leave me to the mercy of whoever had paid for my time.. Always cameras and video in use. I longed for her to return and collect me.. Often beaten and bruised. Welts from belts and other such toys.. Her soft touch as she applied band-aids and lotions the few stitches here and there when things got a little to rough, her soft voice no longer calling me slut and other degrading names…

The mini bus I was shuttled around in was set with a modified seat for me .. it had two large inflatable dog cock dildos, I had to lower myself onto them, then they would be inflated, the knot locking me to the seat, the only way off that seat was for the knot to be deflated.. never a chance to escape. The windows so darkly tinted I could see out. But little could be seen inside.. it took time to stop feeling uncomfortable sitting naked, locked to a seat and watching pedestrians and motorists passing by the windows.. sometimes looking right at me… the humiliation and embarrassment had long subsided, so conditioned to being naked , so normal to be told to present myself to what ever dog the customers had brought along to the set with a smile.

The travel to site with these dreadfully large objects locked firmly inside me prepared me for what ever size dog was to fuck me.. anally or vaginally,

I found it strange that it was the women mostly that wanted to see me knotted anally.. the ohhs and arrrs they would make as I was subjected to the various humiliations and instructed to smile for the audience.

Waiting to be released I would watch their reactions , some held their hand between legs others at their mouths, always wide eyed and staring at the swollen bulge at my entrance as the knot distorted my rectum on the way out…

The gasps as I released the cum, now having learnt to put on a display of squirting short sharp gushes intermittently and save a little for when they dared to come closer.. positioning myself to splash a little on those that dared get to close.

Months past.. each day in a blurr, some times i would be hidden in a life like dog skin, medicated with their favourite anaesthetic, completely alert but paralyzed .those were the interstate journeys, in a cage on a plane, in the hold with everybody else’s pets.

I would hear the discussions of how this dog was anxious and valuable so the need for her to be drugged for the duration of the flights, and please keep her cage covered.

At first I would try so hard to yell and move but not a muscle would obey.. just the thoughts in my head.. several plane changes, different cities.. loaded and unloaded like a piece of cargo..

Not once did any one pick up that I was curled up inside this realistic dog. Such an ingenious way to transport and traffic their merchandise..as i had become to think of myself , just waiting for that dreaded day when i would be bundled into the hold of an international flight.. for my final destination.

As time past, the sexual acts and bestiality acts became more and more degrading. The demand for me to be displayed as something for everybody’s fantasies and fetishes increased. And slowly unconsciously I began to enjoy my role smiling and playing the slut every body expected me to be.

Arriving at an isolated film set on an out- back station.. I found myself faced with the humiliation of having sex with a horse.. there was nothing more left of my dignity. Nothing could be more degrading I thought ..as I was ordered to do the most disgusting things to my body, filmed with horse cum dripping from my mouth and flowing from between my legs, bent this way and that way so sore and tender.

So conditioned and so helplessly hooked on my growing feelings for this terrible woman that now ruled my every day life. I was prepared to do anything to please her.

Like a childish school girl with her first crush, perhaps it was like my first crush… my first female crush. I would do any thing for her, to hear those words of praise..

Today felt no different, Emily sat beside me.. “Ares” lay on the floor behind me… I am locked to the seat.. rocking back and forwards, the sensations building.. Oblivious to the traffic noise , with every small movement i am gasping in pleasure .. that familiar tugging and fucking motion as we stop- started from traffic lights and pedestrian crossings. Almost at the point of no return the wetness pooling under my bare cheeks wriggling and jiggling faster and faster staring at the people out side.. my fingers manipulating my engorged nipples, watching the look on Emily’s face, longing for her to touch me.. kiss me.. the tears so close.. the ache in my heart..

Emily’s voice breaking my thoughts..

Today my dear sweet girl.. we are heading into the city.. You my gorgeous star are about to have your name in lights.. ohh and did I tell you, you are quite famous now, on the news and everything..she whispered..

Not sure what she meant, but the warm touch of her hand on my breast and the touch of her lips on mine had my heart skipping a beat, savoring the affection bestowed upon me..

I shook violently as i exploded with a series of mini orgasms each one more powerful than the other.. her tongue continued to explore my mouth. her fingers entwined in mine..

Whats the matter Sweetie she whispered as i fought to hold back my tears.. did you just cum!!

I nodded my head.. looked away out into the passing city .. tears pouring down my face.. I blurted out the words .. stuttering and blubbering..

I think I lllovee youu ..

The silence seemed to go forever.. Then Her whisper. I Know Honey… I think I love you too..Sweetie.. a small cough.. Thats what makes today so hard sweetie..

looking at her face .. i saw the small crack in her expression the pain in her eyes and the tiny tears before she turned away..

I felt the release of pressure inside me the knots relaxed I, lifting myself off the dildos.. I turned to her, the tears real on her cheeks..

Wwwattt dooo yyou meaan Em.. choking back a horrible feeling..

This is our last day Sara.. Your new.. she choked out a cough .. Owner is waiting for you Honey… I’m to drop you off for the last time sweetie.

Choking on my words gasping for breath,, But I love you .. Ive never felt this way about anyone before I whispered.. I want to stay with you and Kate .. ohh please …

I promise I’ll be good… I will do anything I begged ,, Iv’e let you do things to me … I love you i choked… I can do more… please Emily ..don’t let them have me please don’t…shouting and starting to become hysterical..

Emily reached down and lifted a package up dropping it at my feet.. Honey put this on… Cover yourself up.. can’t have you arrested in the nude can we..

My face dropped .. arrested i softly queried.. why…what’s happening..

Honey the police think you are the one that they have been looking for…

They have a warrant for your arrest.. it’s the only way I could stop you being smuggled out of the country.

We get our money.. Not our fault you are arrested after the deal is finalized.. giggling and crying as she said it.. I get the cake and keep your horny pussy for myself.. hehehe.

Ohh fuck it .. tears welling in her eyes…I tipped of the police with an anonomous call, they were looking for you anyway.. I told them you were making a new beasties video..today … here..

Kate set it up to look like you were the one who took the girl that escaped.. Sorry sweetie your videos are all over the internet.. cough…you were making the naughty ones and selling them, got greedy and started using the hookers you had dealings with.. then started kidnapping other girls.. cough..the silence was broken by her choked back sobbing.. honey I’m so sorry.. they think you are the guilty one..there’s witnesses to prove it was all on you..

We tried to make it look like you had a minor role, but …. it didn’t work..

I just sat looking at her .. My heart breaking that she was so upset ..

Em … I will say it was me..i wont mention you or Kate.. just promise me .. you will still like me.. maybe visit me .. choking back a sob.. I smiled.. you saved me .. I will always love you.. and those pricks I worked with. They can go to hell.. they always hated me any way.. but hey ..I do like girls after all.. and and ..in prison , I suppose there’s girls that are like me..

Em.. I will never tell them about you…

I opened the package. it was the same dress i first wore when this started.. I looked in the bag .. No panties.. her face lit up and smiled.. I just rolled my eyes What the fuck…everybody’s seen my pussy anyway… giggling pulling the repaired dress over my head I wriggled into it attempting to stretch it down .. Did you shorten it I giggled..

Yep… it covered to much of that delicious pussy honey. now lets get you arrested. But first I get our money..

Handing me a cloth.. her eyes rolling .. and that sexy wicked grin.. Sara you better wipe your legs.. not becoming of a lady to be leaking down her legs while shes being read her rights…giggling wildly.. what ever would the press make of that..

The mini bus pulled up at the curb next to a tall building, the place was busy.. people walking in and out .. my nervousness hit a high.. attempting to stretch the dress lower to cover my bare buttocks, I twisted around I could see my cheeks partly exposed..