still nitemare part 3 of 2

so here it is march 2nd

and he was calling last night but she didnt go. we have had sex maybe 3 times in february and lastnight she made me cum super quick.

so today i was looking at youtube videos listening to music when i hear her vibrator going off . i thought she was just laying in bed… she says just seeing when i would join her. so i crawl up in bed and keep in mind she is using a 10 inch vibrating dildo so there is not much i am going to beable to do but then she informs me that she is not letting my dick go into her. So as im watching her cumming all over her toy whil we have bbc porn going she reaches over and grabs her phone and texts you know who. Of course he replies right back and 20 minutes later she is out the door with me still laying in bed with my dick in my hand. She tells me over and over that she loves me, but for the life of me i dont know why.. i will add more when i learn it. We didnt fuck for another 2 days which was lastnight . She didnt cum or anything but i think she kinda had fun. Tomorrow is their 4 year anniversary so who knows…

Sunday march 10th, She hasnt fucked me since she got back 2 times ago and so here it is Sunday and I thought we made it passed this weekend but nope. She was only over there for 1 1/2 hours and got drilled into like a ragdoll. I went out and tried getting a nut but couldnt. I am so fucked up in the head now that the only thing that makes me nut is them. I have been conditioned now that for me to experience full satisfaction is by listening to them . talk about whacked out shit.. So now we are up to thursday march 14th and she hasnt let me put my dick in her for a long time now, and it is definetly taking its toll on us. because even if i cant get her off she would still get excited during our sex. well now she doesnt even act like she has any sexual desires at all. NONE! that is untill she gets over there. Then I hear the slut that used to be at home or in my shop or wherever i was. So yes she has her sex drive still. its just not with me. Was i warned? Had I not read it over and over and still i let it happen. actually , no i didnt. she did cheat the first time, but she did tell me she was going to. but then she had been saying it for years. So now she has been fucking him for over 4 years. And here are the facts.

1) She has lost her sex drive with me completley

2) We really dont even talk much

3) She lies to me about other workers and guards her phone with her life

4) Wont marry me/no last name and makes no attempt to fix things with her daughter and I

5) Really doesnt care what i do

We kind of go through the motions like we are a couple but the connection is pretty much gone completely. She has to feel the same way. I think she has for a long time but is afraid to make the move in fear of what I might do. plus it makes her look bad if she is fucking some big black guy after I stuck it out thru her cancer. When he did as well and is really the one thing she counted on and used the whole time. Black cock therapy is what she called it. Anyway im rambling so for now …by bye

So here we are its thursday march 21st at 9pm she is about ready to take a shower and head over there. Her instructions were simple… charge the recorder.

Its a small price to pay for what she is getting out of the deal. They had their 4 year anniversary15 days ago . I would have never guessed it would go down like this way back when we used to roll play. Now she holds out letting me have any pussy and saves it for him. Sometimes she will let me have some after he has fucked her, but even then it is short lived. She always ends up having me jerk off to their recording. Its crazy but thats the only thing i have came to in the last 3 years. Its now to the point that that is the only way i can cum. I have tried with other chicks and with her. Usually if im with someone else, my mind will drift to them fucking and my dick will go limp the girl then takes it personally and there goes any chance of me getting some get back. well she just got out of shower so she will be out of here soon so i will add more later.

It is now 930 and she is finally leaving to go get her pussy wrecked by that big black dick again… after listening to this oneI must say that she really liked it or loved it the told him his cock always hits the right spot and he says she has the best pussy and loves the way she sucks his cock. he says thats his pussy and she confirms saying he owns her pussy. I swear to god. Well she has yet to give me any and its 3 days later but in her defense she hasnt gone over there again either and he has tried . So we both have been denied and as i listen to her right now cumming all over his cock I just wonder why she isnt there. I cant figure it out she is flooding his bed .

But anyway she is sleeping out on the couch and im in here listening and playing with my little dick … ridiculous and its 530am on sunday march 24th. So i will enter more as it becomes available…

Well what do you know, he started texting early trying to get her over there . So far everyday since they fucked he has been trying for encore. well tonite she will be going back…. so here we go again… more to cum

She hasnt given me any for over a week

tuesday march 26th and im sitting here listening to the last recording and I cant even describe what im listening to without it sounding like a lie. But this guy is literally making her cum over and over and over . Screaming and panting and almost crying in such ecstacy . In between some of these bursts she is telling him he owns her pussy and that she loves his cock and that he always hits the right spots. He is the only one that can hit those spots. She tells me im not even halfway there!! So he is just pounding away then apologizes for soaking his bed.

So she has made no attempt at doing anything with me in fact she doesnt even take a shower before going to bed. This is after she works out twice at the gym.now she is repeating his name over and over and he just keeps pounding his name out of her.

I mean I am not getting any pussy and when i do it is shortlived .