I had never thought of James in a sexual way. He had always been just the friend, the really good friend. The kind that you didnt have to act any certain way around him. I had never felt incredbily comfortable with the body i had. I was awkward, never once thinking of myself as someone sexy or desirable in any way.

One night I was sitting on the couch with James, my head was in his lap and my eyes were closed. Everyone else had left the party, the alcohol of course had gone straight to my head, i was never much of a drinker. I cant remember the song that was playing but it was something very loud and irritating. James was playing with my long blonde hair, twirling it between his fingers. It felt nice.

” James what is this shit?” I asked about the music.
” Too loud hun?” He asked.
” Hell yeah its too loud. You trying to give me an early hangover?” I said, he laughed and mustve had a remote because the music stopped. I sighed and opened my eyes to look at him. James has medium brown hair, that is a good length, not short and not long, his eyes are a dark green. He was smiling at me, I smiled back.
” You’re beautiful you know that?” His eyes were soft and i became a little confused.
” What? You are drunk James, you should probably go to sleep.” I turned my body so that I was on my side watching the wall, debating with myself on whether or not I should stand up.
” I barely had anything to drink sweets.