Right before graduation I had gotten sick. It was late April early May and the weather was hot then cold then raining and it repeated like that for about a couple of weeks. By the end of the week I was cold but sweaty, wasn’t eating, and all I wanted to do was just lay in bed. I was glad that I didn’t have class or have to go to my internship because by Friday I didn’t have any energy to do anything. My dorm mate noticed especially since I had on underwear and laid in bed most of Friday. With my whole body under the covers and medicine plus tissues all over the place, my roommate had enough. Brian said “J I know your still mad at me but I’m going to help you and I’m not taking no for an answer”. I couldn’t even fight him because that’s how weak I was.

So for an hour Brian cleaned the dorm, took my temperature, got me up into a chair and changed my bedding got me in the shower AND ACTUALLY GAVE ME A SHOWER. You could tell Brian had boner but he didn’t try anything which was shocking. He finished getting me into my royal blue thin night pants, grey ankle socks, and grey t-shirt. Which was odd that Brian knew that I loved wearing just that when I was sick (don’t know why but I do). Brian helped me back into bed, covered me up and said “I’ll be back, don’t try to do anything”. Brian came back about an hour later and I had already fallen asleep. He woke me up and said “J, wake up you have to eat something”. I rolled over and said “no thank you”. But Brian wasn’t having it; he rolled me back over to show me he had soup, water, crackers, ginger ale, tea, tissue, and some new medicine that I never used before. He said “J your going to eat at least half of this soup and take a big gulp of each of these liquids plus take some medicine and then I’ll leave you alone, well at least until you have to take your medicine again”. But once again I rolled over and said “no thank you”. As soon as I closed my eyes, Brian punched me in the side and said “you’re going to do what I say and you’re going to do it now J”. Laying there in pain, Brian rolled me back over and said “come on now, sit up” in a deep authoritative voice. So I did what he asked as he fed me.

As he fed me, the tray was on my lap and his hand slightly brushed up against my cock. I looked at him as Brian said “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it and I’m not trying anything. I’m just trying to help.” Once I had eaten half of the soup, took the medicine and a big sip of all the liquids he had on the tray, he moved the tray so I can lay back down. Brian looked at me and said “good night, J”, as I rolled over to go to sleep and said “thanks Brian”.

It felt like I slept for days but it was only like 5 hours when Brian woke me up, telling me I need to eat some more food and take some more medicine. Again I said “no thank you, Brian”, I just laid there until Brian punched me in my side again as he said “I guess it had to be a full repeat of earlier”. I rolled over to sit up as Brian sat next to me. He had already warmed up the food and had everything else ready to go. I just looked at him with the meanest look I could give him at that moment. Brian handed me the medicine and said “you won’t be able to fuck Donna and Derek, if you’re sick” with a smile on his face. I didn’t move I didn’t even take the medicine, Brian said “fine you big baby, I’ll just give you the dose”. Brian fed me the medicine, food and liquids and told me “you have to stay up for a couple of hours; you can’t just sleep the day away”.

I couldn’t do anything but stare at him. Brian didn’t pay me any attention as he sat up his laptop to connect it to my mini projector. Brian grabbed his throw blanket and sat next me on my bed and said “cheer up, you’re gonna love it. I’m not going to suck your dick but your still going to love it” as he scrolled through his movies. We ended up watching Fast Five, and all I remember was around half way through the movie I fell asleep on Brian’s shoulder. I woke up in an awkward position. My head was in his lap so I jumped up; I guess I scared him because he screamed a little as he said “what’s wrong”. With my confused looked I said “oh um nothing” as I quickly went to the bathroom. When I came out Brian was still in my bed and as I sat down he said “can I ask you a question”. I really didn’t want to answer him so I responded “I feel a lot better, thanks for your help, I really appreciated”. Brian laughed and said “you’re welcome but that wasn’t my question”.

We had an awkward pause until he said “J, are you still mad at me for ruining your spring break”. I looked at my socks and replied “we had this conversation, I’m not mad, I’m just confused because you still never answered any of my questions” as I lifted my head to look at him. Brian moved my face so that I would look at him in his eyes and started spilling his guts, I don’t remember everything but he said something along the lines of he was confused about his feelings because he had never cared for anyone as much as he do for me; he still wanted to see if it could work between us and that he still appreciate me not telling his parents what happened; and he will never stop chasing a good love. Then he said “because I miss us hanging out, I miss us working out, I miss us being friends”. He laid his head on my shoulder as he said “don’t keep pushing me away I can’t take it”. I couldn’t say anything I was lost for words as he said “I’m not asking you to love me, I’m asking you for your company as friends as we were”. I didn’t know what exactly came over me because I kissed him. Brian pulled away but he stopped and kissed me back. He broke our kiss to say “we can be friends with benefits, please that’s be friends with benefits” as he stood up and removed his clothes.