My Bad Covid Romance – 3

The weekend came and I was still in emotional turmoil. I want to tell you that what happened next just occurred accidentally but in reality I worked to make it happen.

Alcohol affects people in different ways. It sometimes can make you lose your inhibitions or intensifies emotions that are already there. I have however observed over the years that many individuals have a baseline they incline towards. Nadine for example gets tired and more introverted, me I am getting more brave and outgoing. Also I can drink a lot, until I get shit-faced. This is my secret superhero power actually. Nobody expects the lanky Asian looking girl to hold her liquor like I do. Seriously, you know that Marion character from the 80s Indiana Jones movies with Harrison Ford? That is me in drinking games!

Matze on the other hand gets all touchy-feely. I have experienced it first hand during movie nights we used to have regularly in our clique before the pandemic. Or on nights we were going out together to bars and pubs. He is not one to get intrusive or aggressive towards strangers, but towards his friends this is a different story. One time I have seen him fool around with Sebastian, even kissing him on the lips during a 1€ bet with another pal.

And from stories Nadine had told me (usually she was quite annoyed then) after such evenings I also knew that his sex drive was pretty high when they were home together. Nadine had some really bad memories from having sex while being drunk or getting laid by drunk guys from her wild days while we were studying, so she tried to avoid it whenever possible.

I knew Nadine would leave earlier from work on Friday, to travel to her family in West Germany. After I made sure that she had indeed left Berlin, I texted Matze, asking him if he wanted to catch up on the session we missed during the week. To my surprise he wrote back almost instantly telling me it was good to see that I felt better and he was looking forward to it. He asked me if I wanted to come to their place, but today I wanted him with me. I had never tried to seduce someone before and I was certain that I would fail or my confidence would falter if I was reminded of my friend at their home.

Before he arrived it took me hours to decide what to wear. I even tried on the most slutty clubwear from my mid twenties (which surprisingly still fit me like they had ages ago). In the end I opted to stick with the casual slightly oversized outfit I usually wore together with my sweatpants. I don’t had any sexy lingerie at that time, so I weighed if I should wear my underpants or not. It felt too unnatural to me without them, so my boring functional panties and non-de*********** bra stayed on.

Then I waited and fought with my conscience. Should I really follow this thru ? I was totally aware how this could destroy my personal relation with Nadine or other friends of ours. This however was not the show stopper for me at that point in time. I was primarily afraid that Matze would reject me, or laugh at my assumption that he would want to do anything sexual with me. Still, I convinced myself, that would be preferable to not trying this out one time and regretting to not have acted upon my feelings for the rest of my life.

When he arrived I embraced him much longer then I usually did, enjoying the feeling of my small, sensitive boobs pressing against his muscular body through the thin fabric of his summer shirt.