Giver’s and Taker’s.

I am 32, white married male and I am writing this because I was told to.

So lets talk about how this all started. I enjoy being used, simple and easy. I have given head to about a dozen guys. It would have been more, but I have a tendency of chickening out right before I go through with it. Why?? Well I don’t think I really like sucking cock, I more like the feeling of degration, dirtiness, wrongness and getting used for only the person’s satisfaction. Sucking cock just seems the easiest way to accomplish this. If a guy I am talking to starts telling me how they want to kiss, or suck me, or anything that might give ME pleasure it is a instant turn off and I stop talking to them.

As the years have gone on, and I continue to read porn my interests have gotten darker and darker. My last two hook up were with guys that were hardcore face fuckers and both times during the middle of it I said I will NEVER do this again. But then it wouldn’t take me long to start searching for it again.

Being extremely discreet, married, and somewhat safe ( I mean I do swallow cum and all) I have never done anal before. Even though I haven’t I have been looking for that special person that will take me over the edge. Why because I don’t want someone to “make love to me”. I want someone who I am in the middle of giving a blow job to, to just bend me over no matter what I say and take it. BDSM, choking all these things have been raging on my mind for the last 2 years.

After 8 months of moving to a new area in Detroit, I decided thought out a ad and see what response I got. So I posted on craigslist.

“big guy looking to be used, how is up to you, from mild to extreme it does not matter, age/race does not matter just be aggressive and D&D free”

I got about 15 responses most wanting to suck my cock or ect. A few that seemed somewhat good, but then I opened one from NPR. It was simple and said “you will be used, you will wonder why you picked me during it, you will be praying for it to stop but it won’t till I am done.”

I sent a few responses and this guy seemed the real deal, hardcore knew what he wanted and was willing to take it. There was also something that really got me off thinking about it. There seemed to be a lot of risk evolved for both of us because he was asking just as many question as I was to stay anonymous.

He asked me what kind of computer using desktop or laptop? What I was open to, which I told him anything is fair game the first time, if I didn’t like it we just wouldn’t meet again. He told me guess I will have to use you up on the first go.

We agreed to do a hotel room in a seedy hotel, I would pay for it in cash and he would pay me half after we were done. He also told me to bring the laptop I am using.