I’d only ever spoke to her online before, she always hated herself but somehow I managed to keep her happy and I don’t know how. I reluctantly allowed my webcam to connect, I hated putting up my webcam to people I had only ever spoken to online before the last 3 people who saw my webcam all disappeared off my chat never to be seen again. I knew I was ugly; no one wanted to talk to me after they saw me, and this was obviously going to work out the same. It took a month to get to this point, as my webcam loaded I was scared, my t-shirt pulled up over my chin, trying to hide as much of me as possible. Both the webcams connected and I saw her for the first time, as she saw me too.

I’d never looked at a girl like I was looking at her. I always thought I was straight, every person I found attractive was a guy, but this woman in front of me was so amazing I was starting to doubt my own sexuality. Was it possible that I could be bisexual? I’m 25 and never looked at a woman like this before. Actually wait, I did kiss that girl a few years ago, I was drunk, but surely there must have been something there less I wouldn’t have done it. And her from that band, Taylor, God she was hot, she actually turned me on. Maybe I was just in denial. Actually there is no doubt about it, I was in denial. This girl in front of me was beautiful.

2 Months Later

“Urgh I look horrible”. The same greeting I got every time her webcam loaded.
“You look as beautiful as ever”. And cue the usual speech. I’m ugly. No one loves me. Everyone hates me. What could I say to all that, I was the ugly one. She only spoke to me cos she felt sorry for me I’m sure of it. How could I turn round and tell her she was gorgeous and always would be to me. However she looked, she would be perfect, I didn’t care about any of her problems. I loved her.
“I have something to tell you.”
“Yes?”
“Oh God I can’t tell you”. And with that she logged out of chat. Great now what was up. What had I said? I didn’t remember saying anything but what else would provoke that response.
10 minutes later she logged back in, reconnected cam. “OK. I Love you. And I have since we first spoke, but I didn’t want to tell you cos I was scared that you didn’t feel the same”. She blushed violently, her glow showing easily over the cam, and then she was gone, the chat box popped up that she’d gone offline.
“Well, I love you to. I have from the first moment I saw you”. I knew she would see it, I was sure she was only appearing offline.
“:-)” popped up moments later.

Another Month On

“I can’t wait for you to come here, so I can stick my fingers in you for real”. Ever since that day we admitted our feelings for each other, we had been getting each other off, talking dirty and strip teasing over webcam. And I loved every second. Despite being continents apart, I was desperate to get to her for real, the cam sessions and everything were good, but I couldn’t wait to have her touch me.