Death is a beautiful thing chapter1

Preface
Death
I slowly run the knife across my neck leaving a red trail in its wake. My hand falls down as i feel a stabbing pain from my neck. I move my hand to my neck and feel the sticky liquid that now covers my neck and soon my chest. When i pull my hand away i see a bloody hand. I smile knowing in a few minutes my blood will be all over my chest and soon I’ll be a dead body. laying in my bed.
My sheets will soon be covered in the red liquid and look as if they where red and not white. But as i wait for my body to bleed out i think if you. I think of how much i love you and you me. I think of how sad you’d be if i died. If you walked in and saw my bloody body lying there dead. I think of what you’d do. But i cannot.
Would you kill yourself just to be with me again? Or would you continue to live as i watch from above? I frown and wish i could stop the bleeding. But its to late. What’s done is done. As i feel my life fade away i open my lips and manage one word. A word i know you’d hate to hear me say.
“Goodbye.” As the word leave my lips i smile happy that you had not heard me say it.
I look at my hand still red from my blood. I was calm. I smiled and closed my eyes right as you came into the room. At first you seem happy. But as you turn to look at me saying something i cannot hear, your black eyes grow wide and you rush over to me. You try to lift me into your arms so you can save me but i stop you. I lift my hand with my remaining strength and put my bloody hand onto your cheek. You begin to cry and lean onto my hand and hold it to your face. I look at you and smile. You try to tell me something but i can’t hear you. I close my eyes, and my hand falls from you cheek. I fall into a deep slumber, never to wake up again, With a smile on my face. I feel my body losing the last of my blood and i fall. I fall into nothingness. I fall for a long time, then i stop. I look all around me but see nothing. I close my eyes and think of you. I open my eyes and see you crying over my dead body. I slowly walk to you
>and place my hand on you shoulder. You jump and lok around you but see nothing. I smile. I lean down and hug you. You freeze, and know it must be me coming to say my finale fair well. Your eyes tear up as you say. “Please don’t leave me. I need you here with me.” You sound so sad. I smile and wish you could see me so i knew you could hear me. “I wish i could.” as if those words held a secret spell in them. You jumped up and hugged me. I looked into you eyes and saw what you saw. The girl you loved so much and just watched die in your arms, Standing in front of you as if i was alive again by magic. I smiled and hugged you back. “I know your upset but i had to die. It was my time to. Death takes whoever it wants whenever it wants. And so my time was now. But do not let him take you too soon in life. Please live a long happy life. The life you disserve and don’t let my passing prevent you from living the way you want.” I said and felt tears leave my eyes.
> You reached up and tried to wipe them away but your hand went through my face. I frown as you did. I lightly moved my hand to your cheek feeling the warmth from your body. The life running through your veins. I smiled and kissed your lips lightly and pulled away. You looked as if you where going to say something but i spoke andstopped your words. “I’ll come to you in your dreams, i promise. Do not think for one moment i will forget you. You will always have a place in my heart.” As my words faded as did i. I watched you fall to the ground and cry. I lifted my hand and touched my dead body. As i did so it vanished. My body disappeared as did all of the blood. I looked at you and saw you stand and knew you screamed ‘no’ as you ran to the bed and laid where my body had been. You laid there and cried. I stood there and watched you knowing i could do nothing to comfort you. I turned to leave and told myself soon i will see you again. Soon i will hold you in
> my arms. And nothing not even death could take me away from you.
>Chapter 1
>Dreams　
>As my golden sun sets i smile and know soon you will go to sleep. As i prepare to see you in your dreams i think, maybe you will not want to see me. That you seeing me will only bring back the pain from you watching me die in your arms. I’m about to stay where i am, in my golden heaven, away from your dreams. But i realize i promised you i’d come to you in your dreams. I stand up from my golden bed. I will never sleep on it but i love to just lay in it and think of you. I love to think that you are here with me in this golden heaven. Away from all the dangers of the world. I think of you often. I think of your soft black hair, your soft body. Your beautiful voice, as you say my name in the darkness. I miss you, yes but i know that it was deaths doing that took me from you. I know you wish you could die with me. To end your life then and there, so you could be with me but you know that’s not what i want. I want you to live a long happy life. I want you
> to live the life you wanted. Not to kill your self so you could be with me. As i watch the remaining glow from the sky disappear i know soon you will be asleep. I leave my small gold room and walk along the golden road. I’m not going anywhere in particular. I just need to do something while i wait for you to sleep. i look at my dress and wonder if you’ll recognize me. My dress is a blinding white, with gold trimming. It was skin tight on the top, but flowed into a frilly skitrt. As soon as i had stepping into my golden heaven, my bloody white shirt and jeans where replaced with the beautiful dress. I was never one for white. I would always wear blues. Every shade of blue. I love that color. its a beautiful color. Even with my brown hair and eyes and pale skin i loved to where blue. It made me look dead. Like a vampire at times but i grew so used to the blues that after a while it looked normal and nice. I still love blue but don’t dare wear it in a
> golden place like this. I watch the finale shimmers of light fade away and smile. As the moon glows bright i walk back to my room and change in a more simple dress. I put on a soft light blue dress with gold trimming and smile happy to wear something that reminded me of you and home. I lay on my bed and close my eyes. I think of you and soon i see a bright light and know i will see you on the other side of it. I open my eyes and see you standing on a field surrounded by white flowers. i didn’t move from my spot. wondering if i should go to you. You looked so peaceful and happy. i didn’t want to move and make you sad again by seeing me. I stood there and watched you. you didn’t see me. I saw you kneel down and look at the sky. you knew it was a dream sky but it still looked nice. i moved slowly to you and smiled when
> you saw me. You stood up and ran to me. You hugged me and began to cry. “I’ve missed you.” you said holding me tight. I wrapped my arms around you and held you close. I wanted to cry but knew i shouldn’t. I looked into your eyes and smiled. “I know. But i told you, When you sleep i will come and see you.” I said putting my hand on your cheek like i had done before i died. You leaned onto my hand and smiled happy that you could feel my body on yours. I wanted to tell you of the place you would soon live at with me but i couldn’t. you could not know what it was like in the golden heaven till you died and came for your self. You pulled away from me and ran into the forest giggling like a child. I smiled and followed you. You ran till you came to a tree and looked back to see where i was. As you saw i was close you turned and ran again. I smiled knowing this was a chase. I went to the left as you went to the right and quietly made my way to the tree you
> stopped at next, carful not to give myself away. When you thought all was clear and closed your eyes to catch your breath. I strike. You looked up and gasped right as i was on you. I knocked you to the floor and smiled down at you. “Gotcha.” i said. and it was then that i noticed our lips were only an inch apart. I was about to sit up when i looked into your eyes. You saw the old me. The one that would chase you for hours till i got you and then i’d kiss you. We’d stay in the forest for hours a day not caring about the time. Just sitting in the woods with each other. I smiled and pulled away from you, laying on the ground next to you. You looked at me and frown. “Your not going to kiss me like you used to do, are you?” You asked me. I wanted to say i do want to kiss you. I wanted to kiss you and never leave again. But i didn’t. I just looked at the sky and said nothing. I closed my eyes and was about to ask you if you’d been living you life the way you
> wanted, When i felt you climb on top of me and look at me.