What a tangled, cum covered, web I weave.

Sometimes I feel like a black widow spider, I keep trapping all these men in my web and it turns out bad for them. I didn’t think Austin had it in him to just haul off and punch his dad or me for that matter. Hmm. Guess I deserved it. My dick is my enemy at times. Austin is back living with his parents, god knows how its going over there. Carl’s wife knew about it all, wonder how that conversation went. My son has gone to stay at his mother’s for a while, he says he’s not mad with me, just needs some time. So here I am, all alone, with no one to keep me company, spare the various men and women I sleep with. Oh well.

Just another Tuesday, as far as I was concerned. Shooed away my lover from last night and got a shower. I must be very vain, I just stared at myself in the mirror, trying to figure out what made me the way I am, to do the things I do. Well I found no answers so I just got dressed while I wondered what to do tonight. I really had nowhere to go and no one to go there with. Then, for some reason I thought, fuck it I’m getting out of town for a few days. I hurriedly packed a suitcase and jumped in the car for the airport. I really had no idea where I was headed, so I just stared at the departure board till something caught my eye.

“ One first class ticket for the nine o’clock flight to Honolulu please.” I asked the lady at the counter. I’ve never been there I thought to myself.

Three grand later I headed through security and plunked myself at the nearest bar for a drink, I just hate flying, so I’m usually drunk for a flight. Four cosmos later I was feeling fine. Why a Cosmo you ask? Well, when I came out it was the stereotypical gay drink and I kind of just fell back on it in a public setting. Kinda like putting up a rainbow flag and seeing who caught your eye. Didn’t take long for a gorgeous little Latino boy to come up to me. What a sight to see. He was about five foot nine, maybe 150 pounds, mouthwatering caramel skin, short black hair, and blue eyes. He had to be wearing contacts, no way could those eyes be that blue. I was momentarily distracted with the thought of him sucking my dick while staring up at me.

“Hi, I’m Jesus.” he said.

Jesus, is right I thought I’d worship you.

“Well, thanks!” he replied.

Oh, shit. I said that out loud! Oh well. “ Sorry bout that, I’ve had quite a few. How about you sit right next to me and I buy you a drink to make up for it.”

“Sure.”

“So, Jesus, where are you headed today?” I asked as the bartender brought his Cosmo.

“Actually I just got off work. I bar-tend at another place in here. I was gonna just head home but you caught my eye and I just had to say hello.” He told me.

“ Well, great thing for me.” We chit chatted back and forth. He was a medical student, 22 years old, gay, and single. Only the gay and single parts interested me, but maybe the med student thing would be kinky later, but I’m getting ahead of myself.

“ Well, I better be going, you have to catch your flight and you don’t wanna miss it.