An Interesting Night: Part 1

My name is Alaina and I am 27 years old. I live in Ohio and I stay with some friends of for…..well reasons I don’t really like to talk about but lets just say its so I can get well. Maybe I will tell you more about it later but for right now that’s all you need to know. Anyways like I said I live with my friends I will not name them because of reasons. They are husband and wife and kind of help me in getting better. But I also live with another girl who is also “getting better” and her name is Sarah.

Me and Sarah have a weird relationship. I don’t really like her and she doesn’t really like me. But we are civil to each other I guess. But I just for some reason never liked her. Its almost like it’s a competition between me and her. A battle for who has more power. Now when I saw that I don’t mean like normal power I mean like affirmation. Like I want to know that a guy wants to have sex with me. I love having that power knowing a guy wants stick his rock hard cock into my wet V knowing that after I flaunt myself around maybe say a few dirty things that the guy will go home and stroke his cock thinking about me and then cumming makes me feel good. Its not a romantic thing at all its not like a really really like the guy like that. Its just I know that he wants me. mmm anyways that’s where the story starts and that is what got me into this situation.

So I should tell you I like this guy his name is Kyle. He is cool and I really like but I cant be with him right now because again….im trying to get well I cant have any distractions. But I like him a lot haha. He lives in a house with a couple of his friends and one of the people that he lives with is named Derrick. Derrick is tall and a sort of tannish dark. He has a beard and he is a pretty good looking guy. Me and Derrick have been friends and I have told Derrick a lot of stuff from my past. Because he works for the place that is trying to help me to get well. He is actually an employee of the place. But I still consider him a friend a very good. The reason why he knows a lot about me is because he leads a group and I have had to share personal stuff in that group. One of my biggest struggles you guessed it. Power through sex…I should really just say sex in general.

So Derrick has two little girls and when they come to visit him Derrick has to stay at our house because his house is full of guys trying to get well as well. So every other weekend he comes and stays at our house. This is when the crazy thought happened in my mind. “I could have sex with him if I want I know he wants me”. The only evidence I had was because a couple of times I thought he got a little to touchy with me when I didn’t think it was needed but oh well I shouldn’t read to much into it. Or the fact that I would bend over in front of him in my yoga pants and I would catch him stare especially since I wasn’t wearing any underwear.

I quickly got rid of the thought I couldn’t do that he is my friend and he is Kyle’s friend and I like Kyle. Now for some other back story. The girl in my house Sarah the one I always have trouble with. A while ago she broke some hefty rules of this place and fooled around with Derrick. Multiple times. This was before he had his job so it was a little different but still none the less they fooled around and she was going around telling the girls about it even though it was like a year and a half ago. But she for sure wanted to tell me. Every single nitty gritty detail because she thought that I wanted him. So it was the weekend that Derrick was staying at our house. He had his girls and what not which was fun because we all got to hang out and what not. Derrick had to take me to one of my groups which was a quick little drive. Sarah was already at the place where we do group so she didn’t have to ride with us. Thank God.

I hated when she would ride with us just the three of us because she always assumed I wanted him. She just needed to get over it and get over him. But anyways we were driving over and Derrick said “ man I have been struggling a lot recently”. “ with what ?” I asked because I was concerned. “Sex” he said “ I just have something pent up in me I just want to have sex”. This was a little different for me because since he was in a position of power I didn’t think he was aloud to talk like this with me. Which made me feel special like I was different especially from Sarah. “ yeah I know what you mean” I said.