It’s so hard…

It’s so hard not to cry in front of the scientists. I wouldn’t if they’d pull the tube out of my mouth and let me talk to them. No, they don’t. They never do.

It’s always, “Alice, you’re so cute in your bonds.” Or even, “Alice, you can take a shower, but you know I have to watch.”

Fuck you too, Richard. And you, Hanson. Johne, Caine, and the others I can’t remember. The only one remotely kind to me was that Head Scientist, but only because he didn’t talk when he gave me the injections.

Today they’ve been telling me that I get a permanent scientist, and how it’s a shame those assholes can’t look at me. I hope they get what’s coming to them when the Heads crack down on them. They don’t even regard the fucking camera’s in my room.

Oh… Right. Me. My name… Escaped me. I’ve been here so long I forgot my real name, but I guess it’s Alice since that’s what I’m called. If you’re wondering why I mention scientists, well…

There’s a project happening. People are creating a serum to make a human’s body more… Desirable. I have no other words to explain it, my body hurts because it’s slowly growing so much. My muscles hurt, my back hurts, my hips are on fire and my chest can barely move to support breathing.

It would be better, do they not bind my hands behind my back and lay me on the floor to curl into a ball. The worst would be the skintight latex suit which is supposed to be “efficient” for us. I smell like a fucking… Gym bag.

I’m not happy here, no, but what can I do? I signed the waivers so they have free reign over me. They even changed the color of my hair, I used to have black hair and now it’s blonde. I used to have blue eyes and now they’re green. I used to have dignity.

Here we go, the lights just barely turned on. I heard the clicking of heels on the glass floor, much different from boots. The blindfold on my eyes was removed and I could see a bit more clearer than throught the fabric. What I first saw struck me by surprise.

A woman was crouched over me, a beautiful young lady with black hair and… And blue eyes. She wore stunning red lipstick, had a beauty mark and some really cute glasses.

“Good, you’re awake,” she said, “I’d hate to find you still asleep.” She stood up and straightened a black skirt, and by the time my eyes adjusted all the way, I could see her stockings.

She rummaged through her pockets and took out a hexagonal key, then moved it to the device hooked onto my jaw. It released and she pulled it back, I nearly gagged as the six inch, silicone tube was pulled out of my mouth.

I coughed out the thick, semi-clear liquid that was pumped through. It was the serum they were experimenting. The woman brought the entire tube to a desk and set it down, stopping the flow and then coming back to me. She sat me up and I swallowed the last bit that was in my mouth.

“Poor dear, you’re a mess,” she said comfortingly. “My name’s Blaire, I’m your new scientist,” she held up the ID card from around her neck and smiled just like in the photo.

“I-I’m Alice…” I choked out. It was so long since I talked. I cleared my throat and after a few moments Blaire reached around me and undid most of my bonds. The only one she kept was the one around my neck, a tracking device really.

“Nice to meet you, Alice. So from now on I’ll be giving you your injections and monitoring your progress, I hope you like me because you’ll be seeing me a lot!” She placed her hands on my shoulders and stood me up, shoving me towards the shower room.

Through the door, she pushed me as we came to a tiled room. A bench was on one end and the shower tiles were on the other. “It’s been a while since I been in this room.” I said.

“I could tell,” Blaire ran her hand along the zipper of my suit and brought the little tag down to unzip me, “are you just against showers or something?”

“The other scientists said that if I wanted to shower, they’d have to watch.” I felt a jump in the unzipping and then it resumed carefully. I could hear Blaire tisking or whatever.

“Well, I hope you don’t mind me, because I need to do a physical evaluation on you and I have to see exactly how far the serum has been working,” she shimmied me out of the suit and pushed my naked body into the shower part of the room. She just sat on the bench, crossed her legs and pulled out a clipboard.