I walked out of his house and into my Jeep. I felt confused, hurt and most importantly used. I slammed the car door hard, before pulling out of Trevor’s driveway.

I tried to hold back the tears that were forming, until I finally lost it as I pulled into my driveway. The memories all just started to come back to me. The tears, and the sobbing (let’s not forget the snot..) all seemed to pour down all at once.

Yes, I knew everything was my fault, but I didn’t expect for us to end like that…not in a million years.
I thought this something we could fix or work through, but instead he fucked me, and kicked me out.


At school, Trevor couldn’t even look at me.
BUT I knew for a fact he couldn’t resist my sweet lips or ass for long. Even though he wouldn’t speak to me at school, I would often catch him staring at me.
Of course he could find another girl to fuck, but who else would handwash his dirty football uniform (and underwear) and make him soup when he was sick? No one.

I tried pulling him aside, and explain that it was all a mistake and that it meant nothing, but Trevor wasn’t buying it. He was convinced that it was all apart of a plan to hook up with Chase, and that there was really no project.

After weeks trying and trying, I just let it go.

8 months later, I met Jacob. He was a quiet, hazel eyed musician(and virgin). Jacob was very sensitive and understanding…a bit smothering at times but I still liked him. The one thing that bothered me the most was that he wasn’t interested in sex. AT ALL. He wanted to “wait until marriage.”

Anyways, Jacob would always come to my locker after every class period to make sure I was okay.
” I love you babe.” He said giving me a kiss.
We shared a make out session for a couple seconds and then he left to go to class.
I grabbed my books and closed my locker. To my surprise Trevor was standing there.

“Hey.” Trevor said seriously.

“What do you want?”

“I-I just….I just wanted to talk.” He said quietly.

I stood there silently. Not knowing what to say.

“It’s been 8 months, Trev. I don’t get it.”

“Can you meet me at my house later? Please?…Look, I got to go. I’ll see you then.”

There I was yet AGAIN confused. But then I thought, if I already lost him, what else is there to lose?

So I went.

I headed to his house after I finished my homework that evening.
As I pulled up to his house, a heap of flashbacks came running through my head. The last time I was here, I was at my lowest low. And Trevor, the only guy I truly loved, was the cause of it.

I still had the key he gave me, so I walked into the house smoothly.

“hello? Is anyone here?” I said announcing my presence.